RED FLAG

I have been meaning to post the reason I named this blog "let grace win" followed up with yet another "let grace be on her lips". It has been my experience that when someone declares themselves to be a certain way it usually means they are far from it.  A few examples:  "I am so selfless, always giving myself to others"- translation- I am selfish and sick of having to think of others. "I AM A GOOD PERSON!"- translation- I want people to think I am a good person but I am unaware of how my actions effect others and as long as I get what I want I don't care about anything else. "I just love being with children"- translation- I don't. At all. They ALL drive me nuts."

Now of course I am not being serious with my translations and am being just a tad extreme- but my point is I find that often when people feel the need to declare they are one way it is because their actions do not prove it on their own. Most types of self declarations are a red flag to me.

So here I am, calling "Red Flag!" on myself. Saying that grace is on my lips is me saying I am one thing while my actions are surely not proving that point. Grace, for me, is usually lacking from my lips but, thankfully, very abundant from the people I am surrounded by. I am so thankful for those who love me and continue to show me grace time and time again.

I try and approach all things from a prospective of grace. I often fail. I feel super victorious when I call someone else out on their lack of grace- ugh....sad but true. I have a long way to go before I am living in a land of grace (handing it out that is). But looking at things through the eyes of grace seems to bring such a calm to everything. Giving someone a second, third, fiftieth chance, realizing their reason may justify their actions - or even if there reason doesn't justify their actions- maybe it doesn't even matter? Looking to the issue of the heart and not the issue of the actions. Grace is deep and wide. Often lacking and equally often over abused. It's wonderful and crippling.  Rarely balanced. Beautiful.

I  hope that while I am figuring it all out (whatever that means), that grace will be something that never leaves my side....or my lips!