I have been meaning to post the reason I named this blog "let grace win" followed up with yet another "let grace be on her lips". It has been my experience that when someone declares themselves to be a certain way it usually means they are far from it. A few examples: "I am so selfless, always giving myself to others"- translation- I am selfish and sick of having to think of others. "I AM A GOOD PERSON!"- translation- I want people to think I am a good person but I am unaware of how my actions effect others and as long as I get what I want I don't care about anything else. "I just love being with children"- translation- I don't. At all. They ALL drive me nuts."
Now of course I am not being serious with my translations and am being just a tad extreme- but my point is I find that often when people feel the need to declare they are one way it is because their actions do not prove it on their own. Most types of self declarations are a red flag to me.
So here I am, calling "Red Flag!" on myself. Saying that grace is on my lips is me saying I am one thing while my actions are surely not proving that point. Grace, for me, is usually lacking from my lips but, thankfully, very abundant from the people I am surrounded by. I am so thankful for those who love me and continue to show me grace time and time again.
I try and approach all things from a prospective of grace. I often fail. I feel super victorious when I call someone else out on their lack of grace- ugh....sad but true. I have a long way to go before I am living in a land of grace (handing it out that is). But looking at things through the eyes of grace seems to bring such a calm to everything. Giving someone a second, third, fiftieth chance, realizing their reason may justify their actions - or even if there reason doesn't justify their actions- maybe it doesn't even matter? Looking to the issue of the heart and not the issue of the actions. Grace is deep and wide. Often lacking and equally often over abused. It's wonderful and crippling. Rarely balanced. Beautiful.
I hope that while I am figuring it all out (whatever that means), that grace will be something that never leaves my side....or my lips!
Monday, April 16, 2012
No Talking = More Talking
First off, yes, I did write this on St. Patricks day and yes, I did just find it.....waiting for me to hit "publish post"....Enjoy :)
Tonight as I was putting Avery to bed she was being so sweet. She was so excited about St. Patricks birthday as she calls it. She LOVED that she was able to and encouraged even to pinch those not wearing green. London was equally excited and wanted to talk about Patrick ALL day....where is he? What does he do? It's his birthday (that was their own idea), pinching people- YAY! They would mix up blue and green nearly everytime! "So we get to pinch people not wearing blue?!"
Tonight though as I was sitting next to Avery while she was tucked into bed she was just talking, talking, talking. She was so sweet it was hard to make her stop. She was filled with smiles and excitment. So cute. I finally said, "You really need to stop talking and go to sleep". She nods, "oh yeah, ok mommy."....then she takes not even 3 seconds and looks at me, very seriously and says "sooooooooo, Mommy, how was your day?". I smile, and say "good, thank you for asking. Now you really, really need to stop talking and go to sleep". She looks at me gives two really heavy sighs, looks up with her sweet blue eyes to the left like she is really trying to figure out how to stop talking and she looks at me with eyes that are hopeful to please and says "ok, I will just talk to myself". I let her do this for a while, because she is so cute I can't even handle myself. Shortly after talking to herself she looks at me again and says "so I get to pinch people who don't where blue?!"....again, so sweet, so cute, melting my heart and I am fighting the urge to just talk with her for hours and I say, "yes, baby, that is how St Patricks day works- but you really, really need to stop talking and go to bed".....she smiles and says "Ok, Mommy".....then proceeds to talk to me with no voice- just lips a movin', her eyes alive with excitement and her smile from ear to ear. I love my dear, sweet, talking Avery.
Tonight as I was putting Avery to bed she was being so sweet. She was so excited about St. Patricks birthday as she calls it. She LOVED that she was able to and encouraged even to pinch those not wearing green. London was equally excited and wanted to talk about Patrick ALL day....where is he? What does he do? It's his birthday (that was their own idea), pinching people- YAY! They would mix up blue and green nearly everytime! "So we get to pinch people not wearing blue?!"
Tonight though as I was sitting next to Avery while she was tucked into bed she was just talking, talking, talking. She was so sweet it was hard to make her stop. She was filled with smiles and excitment. So cute. I finally said, "You really need to stop talking and go to sleep". She nods, "oh yeah, ok mommy."....then she takes not even 3 seconds and looks at me, very seriously and says "sooooooooo, Mommy, how was your day?". I smile, and say "good, thank you for asking. Now you really, really need to stop talking and go to sleep". She looks at me gives two really heavy sighs, looks up with her sweet blue eyes to the left like she is really trying to figure out how to stop talking and she looks at me with eyes that are hopeful to please and says "ok, I will just talk to myself". I let her do this for a while, because she is so cute I can't even handle myself. Shortly after talking to herself she looks at me again and says "so I get to pinch people who don't where blue?!"....again, so sweet, so cute, melting my heart and I am fighting the urge to just talk with her for hours and I say, "yes, baby, that is how St Patricks day works- but you really, really need to stop talking and go to bed".....she smiles and says "Ok, Mommy".....then proceeds to talk to me with no voice- just lips a movin', her eyes alive with excitement and her smile from ear to ear. I love my dear, sweet, talking Avery.
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